Author Archives: spectrumcontender

Today is one of those days. My husband walks into the room I am in. ‘Do not see me, do not acknowledge me, do not talk to me’. He does what he needs to do and leaves ‘Why are you ignoring me?’ I managed to keep this in my head, but explain to him whatContinue reading “Cat on the Wrong Side of a Revolving Door”

I know it is technically still Winter. But a couple of lovely sunny days and the hints of blossoms on the trees gives hope of the approaching Spring. I am not fooled, I know we are still in for some hard cold days when the doona beckons or will not release us from its tangledContinue reading “Spring is in the Air”

A week after my official diagnosis my mother-in-law passed away. While not unexpected (she was 90) it was rather quick. Complications in treating a medical condition due to pre-existing medical conditions and medications. So, processing dealing with being autistic (a good thing, just a very different thing), dealing with my own grief, supporting my husbandContinue reading “A Void in my Personal Space”

All my life I have been using other people as the yard stick for what I should be able to do, and even what I should want to do. More to the point, I have been using other women as the yard stick. Maybe not all women, not the really girly ones, I had toContinue reading “What’s the Best Thing about Bashing Your Head Against a Brick Wall?”

As part of my diagnosis the psychologist asked me if I loved my husband. Of course I do, I wouldn’t be with him if I didn’t. The next question was, ‘What does love mean to you?’. That was a hard question. What is love? What is love to autistic people and does that differ toContinue reading “What is Love?”

So, yesterday I got my official results. It gave me a great sense of peace. The report was factual. I could not disagree with anything it stated. This morning I woke up happy. It is corny, but today is the first day of the rest of my life. And it is MY life again. IContinue reading “An Incredible Lightness in Being”

So, tomorrow is D day. I get my official diagnosis. Just to add a little fun to the mix, my job provider also decided tomorrow is the perfect day for my JobSeeker appointment. Luckily (I think) my Jobseeker appointment is in the morning and the diagnosis one in the afternoon. I wont be able toContinue reading “A Little Bit Manic”

It has been two weeks since my second diagnosis session. I am still processing it. I will get my diagnosis in another four weeks. Apparently it takes a while to go through everything and work out where somewhere fits on the spectrum. I have been warned the diagnosis can be a negative experience. I willContinue reading “Diagnosis Progress Update”

All my life I have felt that there is something that I just don’t get. I have always described it as feeling that I missed out on orientation day, which is why I always make sure I attend orientation days so that I do have that little bit of extra information they give. When IContinue reading “Religion”

I have just done another three questionnaires as part of my path to diagnosis. I was told to answer the questions on how I am on a bad day. None of the questions covered what a bad day is for me. Can I tie my shoes – Yes, can I still do it on aContinue reading “The Questionnaires and a Bad Day”