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Yesterday was a two hour psychologist appointment to go through the questionnaires I had answered and to give further information as required. Today I am very fragile, it was expected. It usually happens after a session of analysing, especially of myself. I have some more homework, another three questionnaires to complete by my next appointmentContinue reading “Update: Diagnosis Progress”

I like rules, they define the borders and give me safe spaces. The rules tell me what I can or can’t or should and shouldn’t do. I don’t like rules when they are manifestly unfair, when they are not evenly applied or when people get to flaunt them with no consequences. I can break rules.Continue reading “Rules”

Spending your whole life thinking something isn’t quite right with the way you function leads you to trying to work out what is wrong. Without chasing down doctors for a diagnosis when ever a possible solution has presented itself I have investigated it as an option. These have included: Leukemia The first time you hearContinue reading “Not a Hypochondriac”

A few months ago I mentioned Ants. How a train of thought can be like an ant trail, and if that train of thought gets interrupted it can cause the ants to run around and panic until they are back on track. Since my husband and I started using Ant Theory we use ants aContinue reading “More on Ant Theory”

Do you ever feel that you are a cat, and the rest of the world is charged with static electricity. Just a constant feeling of discomfort like when your hair is standing on end, and every time you you have to interact with reality it makes you want to hiss and spit. No matter whatContinue reading “Having a Cat Day”

So, it has been a while. It’s not that nothing has been happening, it’s deciding what to write about and not being able to make a decision. So for an update on where I am at. Short version: I am at what I will call stage two of getting a diagnosis. My daughter has beenContinue reading “An Overdue Update”

I have always been a box thinker. The boxes that hold my thoughts are neatly stacked, clearly labelled and cross referenced to within an inch of their lives. The labels may fade over time but I still have a pretty good idea where everything is. Occasionally something may happen in life where a box getsContinue reading “Boxes, Lists and Ants”

I am not against Christmas as such. For years I have had issues with December. Could never work out why. I knew I didn’t like the crowds at the shopping centres but didn’t know why. The problem with Christmas is the amount and types of input which are not there for the rest of theContinue reading “The Problem With Christmas”

When I started this blog it was with the best of intentions. I planned to pace myself, not overdo it and not give up on it but keep it going as a record of my journey. I was going to write one post a day. Either a diary entry or my thoughts on something. EveryContinue reading “Why Haven’t I Written?”

So, last Wednesday was amazing. Last Thursday was pretty good. Got up, did some errands in the morning, went to volunteering in the afternoon, went shopping after that and then out for dinner with friends. Pretty full day by most standards. Friday I couldn’t get out of bed. When I did I had one ofContinue reading “Diary: working things out”